Its getting tough

They told me it would tough. I said I was tough too.
You warned me it wont be easy. I replied you dont know me yet.
Now,
It's getting tough. I can feel the heat.
I can feel the emotions inside me swell.
I tell myself I can go on. But I dont want to. I have to.
There is so much at stake.I cant go back now.
I'm a different person than what I was.
I pretended to be strong. I pretended to be something I'm not.
People have done this before. I tell myself.
But its tough. Really tough.
I want it all.The whole deal.
This is just an amuse bouche.
It sucks.
This is what I signed up for, but this isnt what I want.
Kinda like not liking what you order at a restaurant.
Take it with a pinch of salt.
"Hell, this aint food.This is life. Your's and someone's too.
This aint a joke. Weren't you forewarned?
Didn't you know it wasn't going to be normal?"
Give up.Give in.COWARD.
This aint me. I have to make this work.
Be more secure.Be less me.
Cry less. Think less. Trust more.
I wanted this. I want this.
Life isnt a bed of roses. You get the thorns too.
It not going to be like this for long.
I HATE THIS.
I dont want this. I need this.
I dont deserve this.
Give up. Give in.
NO!
Wait and watch.
Make it work.
Accept yourself, accept it the way it is.
Accept life!

17 comments:

  Comfortably Numb

31 July 2008 at 00:12

Nice Nice. I read it two times. Not cos I din get it in the first go. I read it again cos I like it :)

I'm a different person then what I was.

I think that "then" was a typo and it should be "than"..right?

When I was reaading it...I read that restaurant line and I thought the same thing..."wtf..this aint food" :P
And the next line was what I thought :)

Hell, this aint food.This is life. Your's and someone's too.
^^^^ Nice!!

Awesome work :)

Cheers!

  Rashi V

31 July 2008 at 00:18

Awww...Thanks..Seriously its even more special when it comes from you, Kushal :)

Changed the typo... :)

Well, we think alike what can I say?

Thank You !!!!

  Comfortably Numb

31 July 2008 at 00:21

Why is it so special when it comes from me? lol

I like how you write your poetry. Comes out naturally...isn't it? Atleast I feel so.

Yea old stuff in a new pack---> We think alike...Maybe we should... :|

Cheers!

  Rashi V

31 July 2008 at 00:24

No comments :)

It means more bcas I admire the way you write...Take the compliment and blush...

  Comfortably Numb

31 July 2008 at 00:26

Awwww..yes I am blushing. And you know what special...cos its mutual..cos it comes from someone like you ;)

Now who's blushing? :P

  Rashi V

31 July 2008 at 00:29

ME!

*Red cheeks*

  vatsal

31 July 2008 at 21:07

HEH...GOOD:-)

  Ranjeet Kr. Vimal

2 August 2008 at 12:47

awesome

  Dan*

4 August 2008 at 17:27

nice

This aint me. I have to make this work.
Be more secure.Be less me.
Cry less. Think less. Trust more.
I wanted this. I want this.

  K.J.M.

4 August 2008 at 22:37

excellent poem! luved it..

  peter

5 August 2008 at 23:08

hey
tht was absolutely a good read ...but on a critical note i would like u, actually not only u but to evryone who is a poet and posts his/her creations shud explain a lil bout his poem as y he/she wrote it !!

i do it ..cz i want other's to understand wat all craps i was going through wen i wrote those poems !!
..
i hope u understand wat i mean and dun take it -vely !!!

cheers !!

  Rashi V

5 August 2008 at 23:24

Thanks you all :)

@Peter..

I agree with you but sometime I like to leave to the reader's interpretation... Some poems of mine are specific like the one which is 2-3 posts below but some like this one, I feel can be about a variety of situations and by giving it meaning, you as a reader will see it from my perspective and not try to think from yours.... :D

  Da Eternal Rebel

7 August 2008 at 02:14

Need I comment ?


You are fabulous ... like the fresh breeze coming from the sea .... :)

  HOBO

13 August 2008 at 22:27

I read it two times.
Is it about a new life ?
Claps !

  Nidhi

13 August 2008 at 23:26

Nice.. i liked the way u expressed ur feelings. In one way u remembering wht u r and in other way u trying to fight wht u arent.. life is not alwways the same. we have to change and accept it or life becomes hell to live in.

  RINZU SUSAN RAJAN

22 August 2008 at 15:12

nice way of expression in short sentences...!!!

:)

  Ranjeet Kr. Vimal

22 August 2008 at 23:23

i cant comment..u already hv 16 comments ..awesome :)
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