Why do I do this?

There is no point blogging any more.I spent days together in its conception and design.I had started enjoying it but i too is over flooding with negative emotions.What's the point of doing anything when nothing is helping you out.I am deleting this blog.I want to thank everyone who kept reading it and poured their advices.Shared facts with me.I can't continue with this any more.Time is running fast,I can't see the horizon.I have no idea when all this will end.


When I read this on a fellow blogger's blog, I started to wonder: Why do I blog? I started to blog in 06 though my blog shows first post as Dec 07. I deleted my blog because of my frustrations. I felt exactly like her. Now, I have been back to blogging and there is very little, if at all anything that can make me delete this space.

My blog has been my voice. Those around me can relate every post of mine to an incident in my life. Some are as trivial as a sentence said by a person. But that evolves as an idea. Most of the time, my emotions are over- exaggerated, but they are all mine. 

Blogging has given me great friends. Some of them who understand me. Some who offer constructive criticism. Some who can relate to what I write. Some who expect me to explain some of my posts. Some who may think its nuts. But I really don't care. I do (really really) love those who comment, those who actually follow my blog and come and read me each time I update. But truly, from my heart, I write for me. I write because I like it. I like expression. I can't imagine me if I didn't write. If there are thousand who think I write non-sense and one, just one can relate to it, I'm happy. And because most of the time, I write about me, I know my problems aren't unique, hence someone out there can relate.

Basically, I just want MM (who deleted her blog) to realise that blogging maybe cathartic or maybe not. Blogging may be understood by many or no-one. Like most things in life, we must do it for ourselves first. Sometimes, we must cater to other people's needs and wants but we must think about ourselves too. 

9 comments:

  Akansha Agrawal

14 March 2009 at 14:48

There isn't a word in this post that leaves even an iota of difference between your opinion and mine... :D

  Tushar Mangl

14 March 2009 at 14:55

You know, blogging for most ppl is a similar experience as to staring and talking to a mirror. Here we pour our souls out, irrespective of what topic we discuss and in which way.

And one fine day, a person feels saturated with looking at the mirror for so long. The face shows strains, the eyes begin to pain,and the very special blog, looks like a heavy bag of truth, burden of which is at times too heavy to carry.

  spicymist

14 March 2009 at 15:38

you write best when you write for yourself. you can only be your best critic. so well i love my blog too. i dont write about myself much but still, its as if im not breathing properly if i dont write. i put the concluding part to the story i started with 3 words. check it :P
cheers

  Anonymous

14 March 2009 at 17:47

lady... u scared me for a min !! glad its not you who wants to delete the blog 1 i would kill you for it :)

we really should do things for us and not others :)

  Maverick

14 March 2009 at 21:22

Very true!
Not just blogging, even writing in general! I mean its the very outlet of one's emotions which sumtimes we may find hard to convey or portray by saying! Its dat way wid me!
I m sure its similar wid many oders! But yeah, doing things for oders is good, but den u hav to do things for urself too!
Wonderful post! :)

  Amias (ljm and liquidplastic)

14 March 2009 at 22:53

You are so right .. I blog for myself, and if others enjoy it that is an unexpected bonus.

Very good post!

  Ashrita

15 March 2009 at 00:00

I kinda freaked out when I read the first paragraph, I was relieved to know that it was not you.

Blogging is something which serves as the perfect medium for anyone to let themselves out. And I started blogging mainly because I wanted to talk, I wanted to express.. And expression is an important ingredient in anyone's life.

And like Amias above said, I blog for myself too, just the readers appreciation gives it an extra added bonus :)

  Anonymous

15 March 2009 at 01:26

negative thoughts or positive thoughts - one should just write.. feel it - express it.. :) hey Rash high five for this post girl!

  BumbleBeeRunning

15 March 2009 at 07:25

I love, love, love this. Even though blogs have an audience, it's so important to write for yourself, and trust that someone will get it. And even if they don't, it doesn't matter!