I fear!

What will happen if two of your worst fears come colliding with each other and confront you? You want to escape and run away. Run away into the oblivion where nobody can ever find you. But that which you fear within it is a person you love. Can't leave them. Can't escape. Something rather that someone holds you back.

Escaping is something that comes naturally to you. Well, at least in situations that have been disastrous before. I have been here before. People have changed but the situation is the same. I fought. I lost. Now I'm not that strong to go on.

I look at the person in front hoping he realises that what he has become and how it is hurting me. But how will he? He doesn't realise the situation I'm in. The horrors of the past come haunting back. I hate the person you seem now. I'm scared. Very very scared. 

Please be the person I love.



24 April 2009 at 13:31

it made me go 'OUCH' ..

Rash, our fears confront us ... they just come and stand in front of us and we panic.. and in that state of mind we end up doing things which we shouldnt have done.. i am a live example.. though this is way different than what happened last night. still I am just talking about fears..

all we can do is love,
love till we drop,
we don't have to worry,
about the reciprocation,
our hearts dont calculate,
our mind does.
so don't listen to the mind,
in the matters of the heart.

I am sure something really good awaits you!!



24 April 2009 at 14:00

Hmm... a good thought

The calling at the end is awesome!

I wish that you get something really good very soon..


24 April 2009 at 14:20

I cant think of anything better to put down here other than:

Reflection. Thats what it sounded like....to me atleast...

No words 2 say more....and in a way, dats a rescuer.


24 April 2009 at 14:41

is that you in the bed?


24 April 2009 at 15:28

dont worry.. you can be my room mate



24 April 2009 at 15:40

Laws of Murphy... Surreal!

If you ask me, it is best to face your fears. Head on. Remember Tagore - "Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high..."

And when the fear is a person... Just keep the faith.

**I fought. I lost. Now I'm not that strong to go on.
- It isn't over till you think it is over. You may bite the dust, but get up and brace the storm. After all, you do *gain* experience. Whatever be the loss...

Peace. Be well.

Easier said than done, I know. C'est la vie. Tc.

  Satans Darling™

24 April 2009 at 16:45

Be bold, face it as it comes, and I am sure something good will come out of it!

By the way, you have been awarded!


  mysterious gal

24 April 2009 at 17:23

aww baby ...i know everything will be fine soon...and good things await u soon and i m sure u know it ....

BIGG HUG for u >:D<

Love you


24 April 2009 at 18:10

Hmmm... I hope its fiction :)

take care da... talk soon... cheers...


24 April 2009 at 18:25

People don't change without reasons... They dont change back easily either ... Face it !! It will hurt less ...


24 April 2009 at 19:16

hmm... i will be that person u love, and who loves u million times more! :)

and kaju took the poem already! :(
waaaa! :( :P


28 April 2009 at 22:02

*sigh* i hope its fiction too!
or that he realizes~!


8 May 2009 at 16:50

I know you are enjoying, & you know what i means by what enjoyment here...

carry on Raaaaashhhhhhh