You warned me it wont be easy. I replied you dont know me yet.
It's getting tough. I can feel the heat.
I can feel the emotions inside me swell.
I tell myself I can go on. But I dont want to. I have to.
There is so much at stake.I cant go back now.
I'm a different person than what I was.
I pretended to be strong. I pretended to be something I'm not.
People have done this before. I tell myself.
But its tough. Really tough.
I want it all.The whole deal.
This is just an amuse bouche.
This is what I signed up for, but this isnt what I want.
Kinda like not liking what you order at a restaurant.
Take it with a pinch of salt.
"Hell, this aint food.This is life. Your's and someone's too.
This aint a joke. Weren't you forewarned?
Didn't you know it wasn't going to be normal?"
Give up.Give in.COWARD.
This aint me. I have to make this work.
Be more secure.Be less me.
Cry less. Think less. Trust more.
I wanted this. I want this.
Life isnt a bed of roses. You get the thorns too.
It not going to be like this for long.
I HATE THIS.
I dont want this. I need this.
I dont deserve this.
Give up. Give in.
Wait and watch.
Make it work.
Accept yourself, accept it the way it is.